Jason England recommends starting off learning the bottom deal with the first two grips he describes, Erdnase and Modified Erdnase. My problem is that my hand size is such that I cant hold the deck stable in either of those grips. I have been working with those grips for two weeks but best the deck feels out of control. My question is, is it really that bad to move on to the Mechanics grip styles( a grip that I can control much better) before fully learning the Erdnase grips? I'm afraid my decks will not only continue to fall on the floor but begin flying against the wall if I keep trying to force that grip to work for me. Thanks for any advice.