Lost the passion

Discussion in 'General Discussion' started by Nightmare91o, Mar 5, 2018.

  1. I don't know if anybody can relate to this in any way, but I just want to express this and see what replies I get. The thing is, I used to love magic. It used to be my number 1 passion. I didn't just view it as a hobby. It was part of me, and I loved everything about it. The whole idea of it and the mysteriousness and the creativeness of it really struck a chord with something about my personality and I guess who I was at the time. I wanted to be a serious student of the art, and I poured a HELL of a lot of time, energy, and money into learning everything I could about methods, history, theory, you name it, and at one point I was traveling over an hour to attend IBM meetings every month. I wanted to know everything there was to know so I could be a great performer.

    But for some reason I always had something blocking me. I have actually performed before and gotten great reactions, but eventually I stopped because I got to a point where it felt like I didn't have the artistic vision to make the effects believable and workable for me in a truly entertaining and amazing way. As much as I still loved magic, I almost never actually performed it anymore.

    There were a few times when I just gave up and stopped trying, stopped studying or practicing anything. Then some time would go by and I would want to get back into it. But I was starting to realize that I just didn't care anymore. There have been times when I really tried hard to rekindle my love for the art, and just couldn't find it in me anymore. Fast forward to today, and the magic that was inside me is now undeniably completely dead, pretty much with no hope of resurrection.

    I feel like I've wasted everything I ever invested in magic. It was so much a part of me that it's what I was known for and to this day people still associate me with it, and it's super depressing now when people ask me about it and I have to say "nah... I don't do that stuff anymore because I just don't care."

    I feel like I've wasted what could have been an awesome career as well. Now I'm stuck in the same situation that so many other people are, lost with no direction in life and stuck in a life where I'll always have to work a job that I hate going to, and barely making enough money to get by. I did finally come up with another idea for a career that I'm about to try to go to school for, but only because I feel like I would hate this career a bit less than the current job I'm in. It's something I'm somewhat interested in, but I feel like I'll never have the passion for anything ever again that I used to have for magic.
  2. Barring things that are self-destructive, no time spent doing things you enjoyed at the time was wasted. You learned skills that can be applied to a variety of scenarios. Even if you never do another magic trick in your life (which, I'm willing to bet that will circle back around) that's fine.

    Even the fact that you learned skills isn't what gave it value - enjoying yourself did.

    I have two pieces of advice, from experience -
    1) Don't stress over a "career" choice. Don't try to map out your entire life. Chances are, once you start experiencing life, that course will change. Probably a few times. I'm currently on my 8th "career" - not exaggerating. Most people change jobs and career paths multiple times in their lives (at least in the US). I'd say plan the next two years pretty solidly, the next 5 years kind of loosely, and have an idea of what you want to do 10 years down the road - but be flexible. Be ready to take opportunities that present themselves.

    2) Find a community that you enjoy. We're social creatures, we need interaction. Luckily, there's a community for everyone. It can take time to find them, sometimes, but they are out there and they're waiting for you.
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  3. Do not worry, you are not alone. It happened to me before, and in reality many great masters had gone through similar situation. One of my friend I discussed something like bottleneck in magic due to life commitment say family, kids I am now need more time to devote and much less time in magic, he said, 'It is alright to put it aside, as long as not give up.' As you can see put magic aside might be a right thing when you find it too hard make it your most passionate about.

    I will say that in this trend when everything is so fast happening, it is real easy to lost track on a hobby, so I will suggest put magic aside for some time, then in a month or two come back, pick up a magic book you have, just flip to a random trick and read it and follow it, until you can perform it and move on to next book do the same thing again.

    That is how I keep my interest in magic.
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  4. I have gotten out of Magic a couple times in my life. It happens. You findither hobbies or just get burned out on one thing. Not anything I would worry too much about. Get involved with other things. Expand your horizons. I bet you will see something that inspires you and before you know It you are back into magic again.
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