I'm not sure what your trying to say, but I don't think you should ever turn to youtube for a quick explanation. Most of the time the people who post tutorials to magic are just looking for attention. So therefore they really aren't putting time into making the video, which means that it may not even be the correct method, or it may not be a good explanation, so you you might not get it etc. So I would recommend just waiting until your birthday or Christmas, or you could always try to find a job. If you can't find a job, maybe ask your parents if you can do some chores for some money?