I'm stuck with a dilemma with either college or magic. I'm studying at a local university in mathematics however I found myself lately more interested in magic than math. I have attempted to quit doing magic by not coming in this website and putting my books in the closet. I joined this website about a couple months ago and I tried quitting about December I think. I even tried putting off magic to the side because I felt it was interfering with my school work.
Then one day I came across this article about a two weeks ago since I didn't know if I truly liked mathematics: http://paulgraham.com/love.html
I followed the advice near the end
"Always produce" is also a heuristic for finding the work you love. If you subject yourself to that constraint, it will automatically push you away from things you think you're supposed to work on, toward things you actually like. ?
After reading that advice, I went back to doing magic over the weekend, but I stopped doing it again because I realized that I'll be slacking in my classes if I do. However in order to good mathematics you need to devote a lot practice just like in any other skill.
The thing is, I would sometimes spend hours practicing coin magic, I would film myself, and there's no pressure, it's just me and coins. Nobody else besides my parents knows I like playing with coins. Friends and other family members don't know I like playing with magic. I think that's how much I like playing with magic. I like playing it so much that I don't really care about whether other people know that I do it or not. I film myself and I would critique moves and such. I don't know; it feels like a personal pleasure to me.
I think I'm in college for one reason and that is for my parents and probably also pressure from the outside and living up to other people expectations that I should be going to college. No doubt math is interesting , I like playing with geometry sometimes , but if I could spend my whole entire day doing one thing , that thing would be magic.
Nonetheless, I don't know whether to pursue a career in mathematics. Math seems to give a broad range of jobs to choose from, and it seems like a rare skill. Plus I need to support my family as well. On the other hand for magic, I don't know if I could financially support my family doing that. I don't know whether I should find a way to make my brain like math more than magic? Or just give up, and do magic at the same time that might stymied my competence in mathematics.
Please I want your opinions. I know that might sound pathetic asking it in a forum, but I was wondering if any of you faced this kind of dilemma, or any words of wisdom, while I'm thinking this through... I have been thinking this through for too long lately but I feel this is the place I should turn to because I feel like I might be mocked or scrutinized in IRL...
Then one day I came across this article about a two weeks ago since I didn't know if I truly liked mathematics: http://paulgraham.com/love.html
I followed the advice near the end
"Always produce" is also a heuristic for finding the work you love. If you subject yourself to that constraint, it will automatically push you away from things you think you're supposed to work on, toward things you actually like. ?
After reading that advice, I went back to doing magic over the weekend, but I stopped doing it again because I realized that I'll be slacking in my classes if I do. However in order to good mathematics you need to devote a lot practice just like in any other skill.
The thing is, I would sometimes spend hours practicing coin magic, I would film myself, and there's no pressure, it's just me and coins. Nobody else besides my parents knows I like playing with coins. Friends and other family members don't know I like playing with magic. I think that's how much I like playing with magic. I like playing it so much that I don't really care about whether other people know that I do it or not. I film myself and I would critique moves and such. I don't know; it feels like a personal pleasure to me.
I think I'm in college for one reason and that is for my parents and probably also pressure from the outside and living up to other people expectations that I should be going to college. No doubt math is interesting , I like playing with geometry sometimes , but if I could spend my whole entire day doing one thing , that thing would be magic.
Nonetheless, I don't know whether to pursue a career in mathematics. Math seems to give a broad range of jobs to choose from, and it seems like a rare skill. Plus I need to support my family as well. On the other hand for magic, I don't know if I could financially support my family doing that. I don't know whether I should find a way to make my brain like math more than magic? Or just give up, and do magic at the same time that might stymied my competence in mathematics.
Please I want your opinions. I know that might sound pathetic asking it in a forum, but I was wondering if any of you faced this kind of dilemma, or any words of wisdom, while I'm thinking this through... I have been thinking this through for too long lately but I feel this is the place I should turn to because I feel like I might be mocked or scrutinized in IRL...