Whether you want to start doing Cardistry or not is your prerogative. I started when I was young too, and I can tell you that it definitely separates you from the run of the mill magician. Most people they say that they love my flourishes as much as my tricks, so if you are looking into doing magic professionally, I think it's worth the investment. I had small hands too, (still do) but that didn't stop me from learning how to do a Charlier Cut. Only a small percentage can do it properly, but others like me learn to push up as much as I can, balance, and then finish. If you want to start somewhere, then I recommend you buy something like Genesis Volume 1. YouTube is always a good resource too. Hope this helps.