People think magicians want to be worshiped, i.e they want people to accept their magic as real or atleast admire their ability to outsmart them. That is SO not true. I would get depressed if the only people who can worship me are idiots and I'm only capable of getting respect by appealing to them and being fake. how exactly does that make me happy? btw, that's one reason i can't see God enjoying people of inferior intellect worshiping him. Anyway, one of the most ANNOYING frustrating things about magic is that you sense it can pull the spectator into a positive world in their own heads but it is the most offensive oft-misinterpreted thing on the planet - "ugh, another magician wanting to trick me" "u think i'm gullible enuff to believe it's real?" bla bla bla. Those are NOT my intentions at all. It's funny how a movie can be one giant illusion but you don't take offense at it. How is the magician supposed to lower your guard? If he says it's a "trick, not real" it ruins the effect even though he doesn't want you to believe it's REAL either. I swear, this is the NUMBER ONE mystery in the art of magic, period. You can't get your message across when people are already framing your thing as something bad, them crossing their arms and 'indulging your narcissism' for a moment only to make sure to let u know "that's a nice TRICK, dont know how u did it" even though u never were trying to suggest it was REAL, so there's no need for them to act like that. The mentality i'm trying to produce in the spectator, after witnessing my magic, is "haha this is crazy. can't explain that. i like how he didnt say it was real or a trick, bc if i didnt know any better, and I do, it could def pass as the real thing haha. this is hilarious, fun, mysterious." As a magician, i actually had that experience when another magician showed me his magic, knowing full well it wasn't real but feeling that vibe I just described. My only intention is to share that same vibe w other people but I keep running into people's psychological barriers who assume the worst about my intentions. Psychology in magic is an often overlooked aspect that keeps people looking down on the art or demonizing it. Recently made this video of some of my magic but i'm pretty sure it comes off as self-involved, glory-seeking, wanting to look powerful. Trying to convey another image is what I'm seeking. My problem - every time I make a video or perform - is that I'm either coming off as 'thinks he's cooler than everybody' or the complete opposite, too panzy gay. You can't look TOO vulnerable or people will get the wrong ideas...so you try to give the other image..then they think you're an ass... ugh.