ya i told u about my depression? go look
Lots of people have depression. Technically, it's a mental disease and is considered pseudoscientific. Also, could you try typing in English? I don't know about some of the other guys around here, but I'm a gamer and even I don't speak in 1337/n00b/txt msg tlk. Please, for the sake of this forum, use somewhat understandable Grammar. Jonathon Bayme can tell you grammar doesn't matter all he wants, but I'm going to disagree every time when it gets to the point where your sentence doesn't follow basic sentence structure or English grammar in the slightest.
OK GUYS the reason my vids have sucked recently is because my grampa is on his last week to live my mom just got over her addictions(alchol and pain killers and sleep aids) and i have been super stressed an with people say it sucks and stuff i got worst cause even though your all behind a screen i still worry that you are bad mouthing me but tips are fine but not hate like just quit magic you suck... Yes thats not an excuse but i havnnt been able to practice because of this im being serious here its the truth!
Okay, so you're super stressed and everybody is insulting you. Partially, you deserve it. If you want criticism, be ready to take it in all its' forms. Don't lie to people telling them it's an experiment to see how people react and comment to bad YouTube videos and try and follow through with it. Cut the ****, it's not funny, and guess what? It's not working.
Take a break for a month or two. It'll do wonders for you.