I've been into magic for some time now, trying to find what type works for me. After about five or so years of experimenting with different genres, I.e., card, coin, general, etc., I'm at the point in my life where these just aren't my cup of tea anymore. I've been somewhat obsessed with trying to find a form of magic that gets a bit more personal, and is more "real", if you get what I mean. Now, I'm not saying that other types of magic aren't as amazing as mentalism(for those of you who may take offense somehow by such neutral statements; I say this because I've just been awed by the arguments on these things), because some of the effects I've been lucky enough to see have left me just... well, amazed(and most of these have either been coin or card tricks, some, even, of the simplest nature). I believe every form of magic is truly special in its own right, but I'm just more focused on this type right now because it's always had a hold on me since I was a child, and the reason I've put most other types ahead of it, is that I wanted to see if any might gain the same type of hold on me as mentalism. Obviously not. So now, I'm looking for ideas and references that focus mainly on up close routines as opposed to stage routines, not that I couldn't modify any such ideas for the prior, but I'd rather have a solid foundation of understanding before I start trying to tangle myself in modifying already existing works of art along with respect to the fact that I'm more of an up close performer. Also, I'm trying to keep my magic as, I guess, "pure", for lack of a better word, so if anyone will bother reading all of this, and hopefully give me something to help get me going in the right direction, I would be beyond grateful.