If you'd like to read mine...
Hey Wayne,
As a kid I had always been intrigued in magic, to be able to create that sense of astonishment and wonder in an audience would bring me so much joy. Now, at 17 (18 in one week), magic intrigues me more than ever. I really started off in magic as a parlor/stage performer, I loved the big crowds and I loved doing magic on that level. But as time moved on I lost the interest of the stage and really preferred the intimate setting of close up magic. Being able to connect with the audience was what dragged me into the world of close up.
I've never really had great self esteem, and performing on the stage really helped me cross that barrier. I was able to become someone else on the stage and I was able to face my fears of making a fool out of myself. Those performance really made me feel great about myself. Once I graduated from High School I was happier than ever. But the summer of my graduation I was diagnosed with Diabetes, now that brought my self esteem right back down to its starting point. I don't really know why but that's what happened. So going into CEGEP (Quebec college) I was very anti social and had a lower self esteem than ever. But in that tough time I turned to magic and I worked on it and worked on it. I used it, once again, to get passed my self esteem issues. This led up to a day of performing like no other. In my video production class I was asked by my group if I would like to perform magic for our final video project. I hesitantly accepted as I had not performed in over 4 months. The day for the shoot loomed over me and I began to get very nervous.
The day of the performance walking through the halls of my college the cameramen didn't realize what was going on in my head. I had never felt that nervous in my life. I couldn't turn back though. I had a small, simple routine set out and I was ready to go. It's really hard to explain what I went through during the performance so hopefully the preceding video will help. Like when I was younger, I became a new person and I was able to interact with my audience and not feel self-conscious. My nervousness went away and I gave the best performance I could. I am ever so lucky that I have it caught on tape.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8J9ZHX64yxg
While it's not the best performance I am happy that it got me over my fears.
Today, magic is still a great hobby of mine. I am now studying filmmaking at College and am practicing magic more than ever. As a filmmaker I feel magic helped me tremendously with my creativity. Magic is a highly creative art and I find that it has expanded my mind as a filmmaker. If interested, here is one my most recent short films:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K-4URtvbvHY
I haven't been able to afford much magic since I started magic. But what I could afford I practiced to no end. Some books I've read include 13 Steps to Mentalism, Maximum Entertainment, Magic and Showmanship, Constant Fooling, and et cetera. I started magic in the "DVD" era and therefore have more DVD's than books. Some of those include Sinful, Miracle for Mortals, Ghost Bills, Impervious, Panic, and etc.
Thanks for reading Wayne, it's very nice of you to read everyone's personal stories. It means a lot.
Regards,
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Mitchell Stafiej
www.MagicForDarfur.org