Thank you for that. I came up here for a 9 day vacation and to spend time with my dad and his side of the family. While I was up here, my gf cheated on me in Vegas, admitted shes addicted to drugs and alcohol, and shes balemic and anorexic. I am very worried about her safety, but if she doesnt want help, I can't give it to her. I got laid off back at home, now my ex went nuts and I don't feel comfortable in California. But here I feel just as uneasy. I'm just really confused about whats been thrown at me in the last few years.
Sorry man, that sounds like a really tough times.
Everybody has his own way of dealing with stuff like that.
I will tell you mine, but you may not like it:
First of all, you will have to find some way to get rid of that ex. I guess she is the main part of your troubles. Delete everything, pictures, phone numbers, EVERY little thing that you gave her, or that she gave you. Like she never existed. Once she is out of your head, you will figure rest of the stuff much more easily. It's pretty much like you said "if she doesnt want help, I can't give it to her".
I had a similar situation recently, and that is how I dealt with it. And the best thing is to find some new friends and girlfriend in that new town ASAP. Get back to your magic, maybe go to the gym... Just do anything that will take your mind off of that bad things, long enough for you to move on.