Something here seems contradictory... today's post:
but rewind to February 2011
Maybe you should take your own advice.
Indeed, I remember posting this during which time I was into ACR and sandwich effects. It didn't mater that I was being sneaky and cheating, spectators knew that; their game was to catch me(which thankfully they very rarely did). When I changed from wanting to be performing sleight of hand magic and moved into 'psychological' magic things changed very quickly. Psychological magic is entirely about making someone believe something that isn't true, I can read your thoughts or some other such nonsense, that is at least if you want to be good at it. (Not saying their isn't a fair share of lying to be done in sleight of hand)
I am grateful for you checking through my other posts for contradictions between current thoughts and this thought from over a year and a half ago; as it turns out I was not always young and foolish. As stated in the original post I did stop performing for about a year, shortly after getting into this side of magic. At the time I was considering doing this as a means of a job and was working towards a solid routine. This is where the lying became really bad and people with potential spiritual beliefs started fuelling themselves from performances and being the son of a very spiritualistic mother and seeing the detrimental effects this has had on her life, I did not want this to happen. I didn't want to lie about psychology, I didn't want people to believe I was psychic, I did not want to be presenting misinformation.
So, as to take my own advice, I guess that would mean going back to doing Oil & Water, ACR and other effects that don't have presuppositions of clever psychology at play. Or, I am just going to inform people that everything I am about to do is a lie and ask them to keep that in mind at all times whilst I am demonstrating these tricks regardless if I then play it out like I'm reading their facial expressions or some other 'technique'.
The issue is lying and being ok with it. Its very simple. I don't like to lie. I only started taking magic seriously when magic started having serious affects on the people I was performing for. I have figured out different ways through several favourite tricks that require no lie to be told now. Maybe some information to be held back, but no single lie ever needing be told whilst still having a positive affect on the spectator in a therapeutic way. As I no longer hold any interest in pursuing the art professionally(as in for money) and I don't want to be seen as anyone with any special 'powers' I have encountered a certain freedom of being able to mix and match various tricks from different worlds of magic without having to worry about, 'does it suit my character?', 'if I perform sleight of hand, psychological magic won't go over as well...' and other worries of the like.
I'm going to try out some tricks tonight and see how I feel about all of this. I will try and post here tomorrow with how my experience of how performing honest magic went... I will try my best to not take anything seriously.
(Please excuse any potential sarcasm that may be read from this post. I am genuinely grateful for any and all advice given and the fact you have taken time to read and reply is truly flattering)